A Beautiful and Airy Inner Transformation - A Reunion with My Little Self 🌸

This is me in childhood

March 1, 2019

What a beautiful symbol 🌸✨
Today is the first day of spring, and just yesterday — on the very last day of winter — I went through a beautiful and airy inner transformation.

Today I feel spring blossoming within me too… 🌸🌸🌸
But it feels different this time — lighter, softer, more spacious than before… 🌸🌸🌸

Yesterday, during my Gestalt therapy training, I had a deeply moving session with our invited trainer — the incredible and powerful psychotherapist Natalia Schubert.

It was such an emotional experience for me — tender, delicate, and light as air. The theme itself was gentle, subtle, and full of softness… 🌸🌸🌸

Yesterday, I met and touched the little Tina that lives inside me — the sweet little girl I once pushed away in my childhood.

I pushed her away because I thought I had to be like everyone else, that I needed to fit in, to be liked, to please others.
But that little Tina was always so pure, kind, lighthearted, and radiant — gentle as spring itself.

When she grew a little older, she became afraid — afraid that if she stayed this soft, this bright, this open, the big world would swallow her up.
So she learned to protect herself. She tried to be like everyone else — and in doing so, forgot who she truly was.

Since then, Tina kept comparing herself to others, thinking she wasn’t “good enough.”
But how could she be enough, if she was constantly trying to be someone else and not who she really was?

Yesterday, we met again… and it was so moving 🙏🏻🌸✨
I promised my little Tina that I will always be by her side — that I will let her be who she truly is, and that she will always feel safe with me. 🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

It’s such a tender feeling… 🌸🌸🌸 and at the same time, so powerful.
There’s a quiet strength in her lightness — a unity, a love so vast it holds the whole universe within it. 🌸🌸🌸

I wanted to introduce you to this little Tina too. She’s still a bit shy, but oh, she’s so lovely. 🌸🌸🌸✨✨✨

Our session was so deep, so gentle, that today Natalia told me she too was deeply touched by it and even wrote down her reflections later that evening. That made me so happy 🙏🏻🌸☀️✨

Self-discovery is such a fascinating process — releasing what no longer serves us and returning closer and closer to our true self. 🌸🙏🏻☀️✨

That’s the kind of spring I had today 🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

Happy first day of spring, dear ones — sending you these amazing, tender, light spring feelings and my “chudoebi” 🌸🌸🌸🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻☀️☀️☀️✨✨✨