Releasing, Renewing, and Returning to Myself Before the New Year 💫
November 25, 2018
I want to begin 2019 feeling clean — deeply, from the inside out.
To cleanse my body, mind, and soul. 🙏
I love that pure inner feeling — when you sense lightness within, radiate vitality, and everything feels transparent and alive. I call it the “feeling of clarity.” That’s the state I want to gift myself in 2019.
I can already feel that 2019 will be something extraordinary — especially the beginning of it — and I want to meet it fully, energetically aligned. 🙏✨
When I was in Antalya, I used to go to bed around 10–11 p.m. and wake up at 5–7 a.m. Since I returned home, it’s been harder to keep that rhythm. My goal for December is to return to that flow — asleep by 10, awake by 5. The feeling is incredible: calm mornings, slow time, long days, and a steady sense of peace and clarity that follows me everywhere. I feel more productive, joyful, and grounded.
I also started Osho’s Dynamic Meditation, which begins at 7 a.m. and runs for 21 days. I love it — it fills me with energy, opens new inner streams, and makes me feel alive from within.
Today I’m going to my second Holotropic Breathwork session. My first experience last week was fascinating — though at first, it was hard to silence my mind. I caught myself thinking ahead: “Will I see something? What will happen next?”
This time, I want to release all expectations and surrender completely.
The feeling after the first session was indescribable — as if time had stopped. The session lasted 2–3 hours, but it felt like I had returned from a long journey through another dimension. During breathwork, our Inner Healer awakens — we connect with the unconscious and release deep inner blocks.
As for physical activity — I’ve been missing swimming. Artem and I used to swim several times a week in Antalya, and it always left me calm, strong, and re-energized. I want to bring that back.
And then, there’s running.
Running is my new discovery. I started in April in London during Tony Robbins’ training. Every time I run, I push beyond my comfort zone, challenge myself, and expand. Sometimes I even want to cry — because it’s hard, but I know that’s exactly when I must keep going. That moment of “I can’t anymore” is the doorway to a new layer of strength.
It reminds me of the time in 2017 when I walked the Camino de Santiago — the Portuguese way, 152 km in 6 days. On the third day, after walking 10 km, I felt exhausted and ready to give up. But then something shifted. Suddenly, energy surged through me — I started running, carrying my heavy backpack in front of me, and ran for another 5–10 km without stopping. It was as if a new dimension of life opened up inside me.
And now… a new “crazy” challenge awaits:
On April 7th, 2019, we’re running the Rome Marathon — 42 km, starting and finishing at the Colosseum. Just thinking about it gives me chills!
Artem keeps reminding me that “42 km is not just twice 21 — it’s a whole different story.” So yes, winter training continues!
🧘♀️ Cleansing the body.
Since Tony Robbins’ training, I still remember the powerful energy I accessed there — it’s with me even now. After the event, we were asked to follow a 10-day detox: only raw foods (fruits and vegetables), 2+ liters of water daily, plus physical activity and breathing exercises. It was intense — but amazing!
And yes, I’m a total foodie 😄 but I want to renew that 10-day challenge starting tomorrow — followed by a 72-hour and then a 7-day fast.
Fasting has always been one of the most profound experiences for me — I’ve done several 48–72-hour fasts during trainings, and each time it brought me deep clarity and connection between body, mind, and soul.
Paul Bragg’s book on fasting inspires me — he writes beautifully about its healing power. My goal: to reach a full 7-day fast before 2019 begins.
🌀 I’m also continuing deep mind work with Masho Gogoladze through Rem-Decoding sessions. In our last meeting, she guided me to such deep inner layers that I feel the next one will be a real breakthrough!
I’m also releasing whatever still holds me back — and if, in the next few days, I suddenly write to you and ask for forgiveness 😅 — please know, it’s part of the process! 💖
So yes… wish me strength and persistence! 😄✨
And one more thing — for my fellow “beautifully crazy” souls who know that real change starts from within — through releasing, cleansing, and freeing yourself — I warmly invite you to join my renewed online program “In Harmony With Yourself.”
It will be 100% anonymous, intimate, and deeply transformative.
You can’t imagine what awaits you there! 😍🙏✨
Now off I go — to my next Holotropic Breathwork session 😍✨
