Frolicking Through Life: My Embodied Realization
October 8, 2017
Today I did something I still can’t believe 😆😆😆 And I really want to share it with you 😆😆😆
While working on myself today, I discovered something fascinating: when I’m really happy — especially when something small makes me happy — it’s as if I block myself from fully feeling that joy, fullness, and delight, and from living in that state. It shocked me when I first noticed how irritated I became at the fact that I was too happy — and I couldn’t explain why 🤔🤨.
I uncovered that, for my subconscious and my ego, being happy somehow meant being “foolish” — as though to be content and joyful is naïve. Isn’t it interesting what strange beliefs our subconscious can hold? I realized I’ve been carrying this inner state of “I don’t have,” so I often try to fill that sense of lack from the outside. I’d stay dissatisfied, always feeling like something’s missing, believing that by being unhappy I’d push myself to do more and achieve more. For my subconscious, dissatisfaction equaled being “smart” — because it meant I’d demand more, and therefore receive more.
But the paradox is: no matter how much I receive from the outside, it never feels enough. That turns into a habit, a thought-pattern, even a lifestyle.
Through this work, I realized a deep paradox: if I hold the feeling of “I have” — even when things around me don’t look exactly how I want — I can still be happy, I can still feel full inside, and I can make myself happy without relying on circumstances or people. I don’t need to give away the power over my happiness to external situations. From this state, I become even more open, more grateful, more joyful, and the universe becomes more generous with me. If I’m already satisfied, happy, and full, then I already have everything 😍😍😍. That is true wisdom — not the opposite.
Of course, my ego resisted! Thoughts came up like: “Pff, you’re foolish if you’re content with just a little. You should always want more! You can’t breathe easy or live happily until you get everything you want, until you’ve achieved it all. Don’t settle for less!” But the truth is the opposite: when I’m already grateful and already full, the abundant universe opens up even wider and gives me more 😍😍😍🌞🌞🌞✨. If I’m happy now, then I already have everything — not the other way around 🎉🎉🎉.
I was so glad to realize this, not just as a theory, but to embody it — to feel it deeply inside me. Then came the urge to put this realization into action, to live out this new way of thinking and being ❤.
A funny idea came to mind — and I was so embarrassed to do it at first. I was at the beginning of Dolidze Street (I live there, and from the start of the street to my house is about a 5-minute walk).
For me, happiness is associated with skipping, frolicking, and playful running — that feeling of lighthearted bouncing, like you’re dancing through life. I can’t quite describe it in words, so I’m sharing here a Disneyland video of me doing exactly that 😆😆. And I decided — I would cover the whole distance home in this frolicking, skipping, joyful run, with a big happy smile on my face 😆😆😆.
With every step, I reminded myself: Here and now, without anything extra, I can be happy. I can celebrate life. I don’t care what people on the street think if they see me like this 😅😅😅.
And so I did it 😆😅. I did it for myself, for the pure feeling of happiness without any reason, just for joy, for celebration. And I had so much fun 😆😆😆😆. I did it with the deep knowing that if I am happy — then I already have everything 😍😍😍😍😍. And you know what? That’s the truth. 😍😍😍😍🎉🎉🎉🎉
